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Wednesday, 09 May 2012

  • rAnDom ChAttEr

     I am so SO tired today. My lil guy fell out of his bed at 2am and was up for like an hr n a half crying.... ugh. He was fine just wanted to use it as an excuse to get up but when I wouldnt let him he got mad. Then Amanda woke up at like 4 to nurse... then again at 7.30ish... I even managed to sneak in a nap today... maybe an hr n a half ish.... lol... but it wasnt enough. *sigh* Some days lol ;D

    I have to go to the docs tomorrow for bloodwork and urine test and jazz to get me pre-registered for my surgery come next tuesday! I am still super nervous about it.... but I'm so SO ready to get rid of this growing pain in my stomach. :P

    Amanda is so close to crawling but she just... stopped. I dont know what was so encouraging to her once that all of a sudden isnt. My kids I tell ya what..... Malachi has done that with talking.... but I'm praying and believing he's going to be talking too... stubborn kids! :P

    I hate phone forwards. I just do... unless it's something funny... then it's ok. lol.... but those fwds that are all.... send to 10 ppl something good will happen... or especially the ones... ignore this and God will ignore you... lol.... right. I'm sure God could care less about those stupid things.

    I'm excited for Ashly, my sis, to be coming friday!! I'm kinda throwing her a "surprise party". lol... kinda. Jay took off work....and I'm gona go pick up mom b4 she gets here. I'm decorating with balloons and a sign... presents, food, colorful tablecloth... LOL... yeh, I'm hope she likes it. I even got her a "fancy" crown haha! well... I hope it shows her how much she means to us. :) Then on saturday we are heading to Gatlinburg to celebrate her day at DollyWood :D I'm excited to go there for Malachi I edmit. haha...

     

Monday, 07 May 2012

  • I'm sooooooooo incredibllllyyy annoyed. lol... no other way to put it. I realize we are all in completely different walks of life. Each of us have our own callings, our own abilities, disabilities... we have different convictions and we hardly/ if ever have the same eye. Still it bothers me. The bible clearly says over and over and over and OVER do NOT break promises!! Let your yes be yes your no be no! It even says the promises you break will condemn you! It will bring a curse!! Do people just not understand this? Has it not been told? Read your bible people! It's there!! God does not like broken promises! Besides how can you trust someone who is constantly breaking their word? It's like the boy who called wolf... after a while people just expect.. nothing from you. I never want to be placed in a catagory amongst others as an untrustworthy person. I want to be the one that others come to when they need. I cant go to someone who is constantly backing out of a vow, with a need, when I know...... 9 times out of 10 they wont be there. I dont care if it's simple every day no big deal kinda stuff. Dont get my hopes up and then drop them! There's nothing worse than looking forward to something and right when that moment is finally there..... it gets ripped from under you and all you can think is... well, crap. If I had known this wasnt going to happen I would have/ could have/ should have made other plans!

    I've decided that (all annoyance aside for a moment) I am going after God. Like, seriously. I dont care what anyone thinks. I dont care that when praise and worship starts up and no one is standing... it's just me like a sore thumb, like a red amongst white. A city on a hill will be seen! Sit, twittle your thumbs, think about what you did yesterday, think about what you'll eat for lunch.... I'm gonna serve my Lord and Saviour. Now, I realize this is probably not the best of thinking. Due to the fact that we should care; that others need Jesus!! But, if you claim to be God and full of the spirit and LOVE Him.... where's the fruit?? Shouldnt we all be screaming and dancing and throwing up our hands and in complete awe of all that He is and all that He has done, and all that He is doing..... ??? Where's the passion? Where's the commitment? Where's the unconditional love?

    I need God. Like breath to breathe, like water to drink..... He is my all and all... He has to be! I PRAISE His HOLY name!!!! Why is there no hunger for HIM?! I am HUNGRY!! LORD SEND ME!

Friday, 20 April 2012

  • I'm baaaack!

    So, I havent been on Xanga in a SUPER looooong time!!

    I am now a mother of TWO!!! did you get that?! TWO! 2! t.w.o. lol....

    I am now the proud mother of a little boy and a little girl. I couldnt be happier :D God is soo good.

    However! I am back on Xanga after such a long vacation due to some... "drama" in my life. Not really what the world I guess would consider as drama... but rather just some things that I have bundled up that I can't really share with anyone. So what's the natural thing to do? Share it with the world wide web. LOL!

    I have no clue as to where God is taking my family. And quite frankly, I wish I did!! I hate this feeling of knowing we should be doing more... but not being able to. And then there's my lil boy. He's so stubborn and is refusing to talk. Words that he once said... suddenly he wont say anymore. And I try my hardest to get that boy to call me Mom and he shakes his head no. I know he understands me because he does most of everything I ask and He's the cutest lil booger ever. But I do long to hear him cry for mommy. *sigh* The church we go to is lead right now by a family that refuse to be called "pastor" because they are prophets. But they are in the office of a pastor for the time being so they need to act like it is how I feel. Just because you are a prophet gives you no right to be rude. That card is passed around WAY too much and I'm so tired of hearing it. Your God's children, act like it! For petes sake.... Needless to say (not that you know the whole story)... we are getting away for a weekend. Free of the drama. Of corse my kid comes with me LOL! But you know what I mean... the more crazy stuff will be miles away... sorta. ha.

    So, all this being said. I will most definately be back to vent. No one else understands. And I hate talking to ppl who "try" to understand.... honestly (no offense but..) it's like talking to a wall. It listens well! Doesnt leave the room while I'm talking! Never interrupts! But lets face it... I will get no good feed-back on what I should do. And it for sure just makes me feel silly for even bringing it up. Thanks for trying. But seriously... no thanks. Yep, talking to no one and everyone all at the same time.......... seems to be best right now. So, until next time world wide web... good night. :) and... hey! I've missed you!

Wednesday, 17 November 2010

  • There's nothing i do better than Revenge

    So apparently there is a big fuss over Taylor Swifts song Better Than Revenge being an attack on actress Camellia Belle for stealing her boy.... that it was intended to be a shout out to her on Taylors new album and everyone thinks she's gone too far. The song includes the chorus : She's not a saint and she's not what you think she's an actress whooaaa She's better known for the things that she does on the mattress whooaa She should keep in mind, there is nothing i do better than revenge.

    Do you think she was out of line for writing a song about a girl who steals her boyfriend and then putting it on a cd for the whole world to sing? (and or agree that she's horrible?)

    So many people are saying it was wrong. That it was way out of line and immature.

    It was. But dont tell me for one second if you had the chance and the amazing creativity that Taylor has, that you wouldnt have done the same thing if you could've.

    I agree it was immature but she's a kid. She was hurt and mad. She wrote a song expressing her feelings.... getting feelings off your chest always makes you feel better right? Or does that exclude famous people?

    She could've gone about it a different way. She could have kept the song to herself. But she didnt. Im not saying it's right, im just saying it would have been hard. Im not saying what she did deserves a pat on the back, im just saying I would have done it too. I dont blame her.

    People write songs about people all the time. Its what we as humans do. We write down how we feel when we feel it not caring who sees it. Because we are full of emotions that are uncontrollable at times. Do we ever have regret? yes. but most of the time, we dont regret the mean things we say when we mean them. Because it's truth to us and it makes us feel better. It made her feel better. And i say... right on.

    The songs she writes are so awesome. the words she uses are amazing. The world is just jealous because they didnt get a chance to tell a bully what they thought when they thought it... much less be able to tell it to the world.

Thursday, 11 November 2010

  • Drop 5lbs in a week

    So... doing my google thing... i stumbled across this site swearing I can drop 5lbs in a week by choosing at least 4 of any of the plans they had listed to help you lose weight. I thought eh, why not at least look at what their choices were. Some of them included:

    Make one food sacrafice at every meal. (dont have the chips, cut out the dessert)

    Do any workout that gets your heart rate up, for 30min a day. (best if alternating short bursts of intense cardio w/ slower activity)

    Drink a cup of coffee an hour b4 working out (apparently you'll burn more calories w/o realizing you're pushing yourself harder... hem, idk something tells me I would definatley know.)

    Do 36 push-ups and lunges every other day.

    Drink mainly water.

    and there are more....

    I thought....... hem..... maybe i should try one of those blog things like that movie Julie & Julia. lol... and do some things on this list every week... and then post at the end of the week... see if it really works and how i do. LOL... I know crazy right????? But here's what im thinking... you may not care... but I do. LMBO. And I figure keeping track and posting might help keep me doing this cuz... somethings gota change.

    According to their tracking... 5lbs a week... and my schedule... if i stick to it and do it exactly as they say everyday.... that'll be 30lbs before Christmas.

    So.... starting tomorrow let the weight drop. Wish me luck.

     

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